Lottery Ticket

She told me that I shouldn’t spend my last ten bucks on a lottery ticket. I said, “fuck that.” And then I spent my last ten bucks on a lottery ticket. She called me stupid. I called her a cunt. Then I scratched off the ticket. “Ha!” I yelled, and I shoved the ticket inContinue reading “Lottery Ticket”

To Do List

Sitting on the balcony of my second floor apartment building, I drag my cigarette and listen to the footsteps of people walking by on the sidewalk beneath me. Tat, tat, tat. Tat, tat, tat. It sounds like it’s two people but I don’t care enough to look and see for sure. I just listen toContinue reading “To Do List”

Drowning

I walked down to the beach this morning, even though I don’t live by the ocean. Or any body of water. I just walked until I heard the sound of waves in my head. The smell of salt in my nose. None of it was real, but it felt good anyways. It felt like IContinue reading “Drowning”

Under the Covers

I pull my body out from under the covers like I’m pulling a blade from my stomach. So hungover. Sharp pains on either side of my head. A weird sloshy feeling in my abdomen. But in this bed I feel safe like I am in a cellar with only one way out, that has aContinue reading “Under the Covers”

Do What You Love

Lost fifty bucks at the casino in five minutes. Fifty more in my pocket. Think I’ll save it. Well, save it until tonight. Then I’ll use it to buy drinks. And gamble. And buy more drinks. I feel like I do the same shit all the time. I guess I do. Oh well. At leastContinue reading “Do What You Love”

Manipulation

She met me for lunch today, wearing a blue dress and fishnet leggings. For lunch. At this casual place down the street from me. I was going to break up with her but I couldn’t once she showed up like that. In that tight blue dress. Her lips bright red. She said she was alreadyContinue reading “Manipulation”