Sweat

It’s all sweat in the morning.
It’s coffee,
and burnt toast,
and then the same worries
that I always have.
It has something to do
with the start of a new day,
I think,
because each day seems like
it could be my last day.
Each day feels like it could be
the day that I crash my car
on the way to work,
or choke on a bite of food,
or find out that it’s actually cancer
that has been fucking
with my mood.
It’s always just a bunch of
irrational fears
that appear real
until the night comes.
And then I feel fine.
Then I know that I’ve made it
through another day,
and all I have to do is
drink
and smoke
and fuck
until I fall asleep,
and I
almost
sort of
barely
stop sweating.

25 responses to “Sweat”

  1. Sleep all day, play all night.

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  2. Become a Vampire then you won’t have to worry. Have Dead good Fun. (Just kidding).

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    1. haha not a bad idea

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  3. But I assure you I am not making fun of you.

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  4. “because each day seems like
    it could be my last day.”
    Dude. Each day COULD be your last. So you are not wrong. We are ALL living on Borrowed time. And if “all I have to do is
    drink
    and smoke
    and fuck
    until I fall asleep” then you indeed have it better than most.

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    1. i don’t think i have it bad. and i wouldn’t have it any other way

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  5. Let me tell you Lou, being told you are dying of cancer makes the sweats go away. It all becomes fascinating.

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  6. Damn brother you got a rockstar life going! Although… Most people are relieved in the morning but out of whack at night.. Glad to know you can sleep fine with all those thoughts floating in your head….. How?

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    1. well the drinking helps. and the smoking. it shuts my brain off. then all the thoughts come back when i wake up

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      1. Try swapping the drink with some weed and meditating…thoughtlessness… 😉

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        1. deal. sounds great

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  7. i was sweating just reading this, lol. Is there a deodorant for that?

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    1. you might need clinical strength stuff for that

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      1. haha – I think you’re right.

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  8. There, you said it. It’s pretty simple, life, when you come to think of it.

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  9. ah!!! your blog makes me unwind..please accept my love for you.here is an award
    https://merakiforever.wordpress.com/2018/03/07/award-ceremony/

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    1. thank you very much

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  10. Reblogged this on Kindra M. Austin and commented:
    Lou Rasmus ❤

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    1. thank you for the reblog. means a lot

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      1. You’re so welcome, Lou. 🙂

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  11. My rhythm tends to be diurnal, yet here I am at 10:30 p.m., reading about all-nighters.

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    1. sometimes things change

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