LOU RASMUS

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Thoughts During Writer’s Block, pt. 1

I want to take a shower and start over. Not with this, but in general. I’d like to go back to school and figure out what my life should look like – what it could look like – if I wasn’t so worried about writing all this bullshit. I could probably get a good job if I wanted to. Something safe that pays the bills and supports my girlfriend. Something that may support a child one day. I wonder where I would be if I gave all of this up and started again. I wonder if I’d be happier with myself. Maybe I should give it a try.

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70 responses to “Thoughts During Writer’s Block, pt. 1”

  1. Nash Christmas Avatar
    Nash Christmas

    I hope you could live from blogging without stress on the job 🙂 .

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      maybe someday.

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      1. Nash Christmas Avatar
        Nash Christmas

        If you post more often maybe you could 🙂 .

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      2. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        well ive always liked a challenge

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  2. Scarpoe Avatar
    Scarpoe

    Nothing ventured nothing gain as they say.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      very true. just struggling with a lot of self doubt right now

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  3. dale.beck1@hotmail.com Avatar
    dale.beck1@hotmail.com

    it keeps coming back to bite you lou… you can never leave… like the hotel california.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      i don’t think i ever will

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      1. ortensia Avatar
        ortensia

        not to mention that the hotel California closed down after one of the biggest drugs related massacres,lol. Lou,you are young don’t waste much time doubting yourself it is all time you could use in better way but remember no pain no gain….unfortunately

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      2. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        all of this is very true. i try not to but it happens. and that’s it. i just feel like maybe i need to push myself a little more

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      3. ortensia Avatar
        ortensia

        Yes do it.it is hard but pays back😎trust the old lady

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      4. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        thats what im thinking

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      5. ortensia Avatar
        ortensia

        👍🏻😎

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  4. George F. Avatar
    George F.

    Life offers no “mulligans.” You can’t change the past, but starting today, you can change your future.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      very true. just still not sure what future i want

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      1. George F. Avatar
        George F.

        Pick up Stephen King’s “On Writing.” Great insights.

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      2. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        have it. just haven’t found the time to read it yet. should be my next

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      3. George F. Avatar
        George F.

        Just skip to the part where he buys a new desk and spends “six years sitting behind it drunk and stoned out of my mind…not even remembering writing Cujo” That will grab your interest.

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      4. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        sounds like it will. thanks George

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  5. Scarpoe Avatar
    Scarpoe

    Maybe a short break will do.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      i just took a break. i got bored. trying to write through it now.

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      1. Scarpoe Avatar
        Scarpoe

        Good luck.

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      2. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        thank you. i need it

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  6. tubularsock Avatar
    tubularsock

    Lou. Let’s clear some things up.

    You are already an excellent writer.

    School is not the most creative place to hang out.

    Why do you believe that you are responsible to support your girlfriend?

    Is there some work you WANT to do?

    There are no safe jobs.

    And to be happy is an inside job which needs tending continually.

    Your appointment is up with Dr. Sock. Just put the payment of unmarked Franklin’s in a brown unmarked lunch bag and place it in our agreed upon park bench.

    See you at your next appointment, Monday.

    And remember, “You Are The Force” so keep your light saber dry!

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      thanks for seeing me, Doc. you’ve given me a lot to consider. and given me a nice compliment. the money’s in the bag. will catch up again soon.

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  7. floweringink Avatar
    floweringink

    Lou, you are an artist, a true artist, because you dig deep and uncover all the messy bits of your truth. Unfortunately, I think the self doubt comes with the territory, I have felt it so often in my life and still do and I think always will. I am drowning in it this week. But, who the fuck am I? I am not wisdom or an expert. I do know that you are a writer and a good one. I believe good writing begins with the truth and school can’t give you your truth. Someone can be given all of the tools, but if they don’t have the heart, their art will never really be any good.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      damn. that was very nice to hear. thank you … i just think about school because i never really gave it a chance, and i wonder if i should have. but i do think you’re right. it has to come from some place real. and the self doubt is real, as you know. so that’s where i am right now.

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      1. floweringink Avatar
        floweringink

        I didn’t really give school a chance either, and there are times I think that I will never be a good writer, or a real writer, without the degree, but then I remind myself of what I just told you…..and I do believe it. If self doubt is where you are right now, be there and write about it, just like you did in your post. You are the real deal Lou!

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  8. jim- Avatar
    jim-

    Redo’s are always a healthy and adventurous option. Reach you potential buddy. The mere fact that you can see something missing tells me you have more to offer this beautiful woman of yours.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      ya. i agree. i think there’s more

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  9. Orvillewrong Avatar
    Orvillewrong

    Its never to late to change, but if you did could you live with the change!

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      good question. i think so… no way of knowing for sure though

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  10. kenza Avatar
    kenza

    Travel. Go somewhere you have never been. Do that at least once a year and your perspective will change for the better. A very humble piece of advice from the heart. Kenza.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      right on. i like that advice, thanks for sharing it.

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  11. Silent Hour Avatar
    Silent Hour

    Good to see you again! You were missed.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      that is kind, thank you. i missed it here too

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  12. Rikki Avatar
    Rikki

    Nothin wrong with trying something new if you don’t like where you’re at in life. But there’s also nothing wrong with taking another stab at something you’ve been doubting.

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  13. Joseph Emerson Avatar
    Joseph Emerson

    I wish I could back with what I know now. I wish for the opposite. I’d like to bail on my corporate job and go back to be a starving artist, although stressful, those were some of the best years of my life. Now rethinking that… it was exhausting lol

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      i guess they both come with good and bad. like most things. but id like to have the steady job and the chance to pursue the art in my free time, rather than no hope of a good job at all

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      1. Joseph Emerson Avatar
        Joseph Emerson

        Tough spot. Wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide to do ✌🏻

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      2. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        thanks Joseph. appreciate that

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  14. WaltPage Avatar
    WaltPage

    You’ll never know if you never try, but then is your life half empty or half full?

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      hopefully half full. i guess ill have to see

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  15. Richmond Road Avatar
    Richmond Road

    Lou, my man. Why so negative? Take comfort in the knowledge that even after you get that job behind the mahogany desk with the Ferrari parked downstairs and after your girlfriend (who has mysteriously become your wife) has been showered with diamonds and your girlfriends (who have not become your wife, but have not completely given up on the idea) have showered you with compliments and blow jobs ….. it will all be just the same. Even after your kids are enrolled at the very best universities but really spend most of their lives skiing in France or sailing on the Mediterranean ….. it will all feel just the same. And if you keep blogging, writing, painting and imagining then that will feel just the same too. No matter what, you’ll feel, at the end of it all, that you have made the wrong decision somewhere. You will feel like a failure.
    Because if you ever live up to your own expectations or ever achieve your lofty goals your next step will be into the abyss. We are all doomed to failure.
    Try to be a beautiful failure.
    And take comfort in that.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      jesus that was beautiful. and it all sounds right. thank you for this comment. ill try my best

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  16. HotBottoms Avatar
    HotBottoms

    It seems that you can’t not write. That’s the only reason to do it. Pay attention to the now-exactly what’s in front of you. Fuck ten minutes ago or a year down the road. Do what you need to do NOW. The rest follows from that.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      right on. write on. i think i can do that

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  17. erroneouschoices Avatar
    erroneouschoices

    It’s never ever too late to change directions. You can do it at any point. Time affords us exactly that, time. If you want to try something else do it. I love my experience with higher education. I’m not a professional writer but I still do it all the time, while I also go to school and work etc.
    We are always evaluating life though, keep that in mind. 🙂

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      thats it. i think ill always write.. but i also want to know what else there is. it’s a curiosity if nothing else

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  18. S_MW Avatar
    S_MW

    Think you’re a fucking amazing writer…and what everyone else said.
    I’m sorry but I got nothin’ else. This writing block thing is catching.

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  19. lou rasmus Avatar
    lou rasmus

    i hope it doesn’t get you too. … but thank you. that is very kind

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    1. S_MW Avatar
      S_MW

      It kinda did, but I took something for it and now I’m fine. And you’re welcome…I mean what I say.

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      1. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        good. and thanks again

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      2. S_MW Avatar
        S_MW

        No….thank YOU! 🙂

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  20. Winnie Avatar
    Winnie

    I felt like that Lou. I have so many ideas but I can’t form a concrete one. Just don’t stress yourself. Hey, thank you for always dropping by my blog. I appreciate it.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      of course. and thank you for the comment. good to know im not the only one

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      1. Winnie Avatar
        Winnie

        Yes! Everyone has it 😉

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  21. As much cake as you want Avatar
    As much cake as you want

    Glad to see you’re back – it’s always good reading your posts.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      thank you. glad you enjoy them

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  22. timhuw Avatar
    timhuw

    Try reading Elmore Leonard and his 12 point guide for writing. He spent a lifetime honing his craft AND made sure his punctuation expressed his true meanings. RE your last sentence.

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      i might have to check it out. but i do like my last sentence as it is

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  23. charlypriest Avatar
    charlypriest

    I bought a child, just an idea

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      hahaha that’s one way to make a change. not sure if i want to go that far. but thanks for the suggestion

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      1. charlypriest Avatar
        charlypriest

        I’m not kidding, every time I bought “pipas” or “pipes” as my computer translater says…..
        Point being here in Spain you buy half of a kilo, and they are so nice to make you look at a UNIFE ad, wich comes with a black kid there, which I calaed him “Maccoko” so I invest in food helpling the poor

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      2. lou rasmus Avatar
        lou rasmus

        ok i see… guess thats probably more manageable

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  24. Laura M Bailey Avatar
    Laura M Bailey

    Me too

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      if only we could

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      1. Laura M Bailey Avatar
        Laura M Bailey

        Amen

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  25. Butterfly Effect Avatar
    Butterfly Effect

    Wow

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    1. lou rasmus Avatar
      lou rasmus

      thank you for reading

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