LOU RASMUS

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Thoughts During Writer’s Block, pt. 1

I want to take a shower and start over. Not with this, but in general. I’d like to go back to school and figure out what my life should look like – what it could look like – if I wasn’t so worried about writing all this bullshit. I could probably get a good job if I wanted to. Something safe that pays the bills and supports my girlfriend. Something that may support a child one day. I wonder where I would be if I gave all of this up and started again. I wonder if I’d be happier with myself. Maybe I should give it a try.

lou rasmus

February 26, 2018

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70 responses to “Thoughts During Writer’s Block, pt. 1”

Nash Christmas

February 26, 2018 at 3:56 pm

I hope you could live from blogging without stress on the job 🙂 .

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 3:59 pm
  
  maybe someday.
  
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  1. Nash Christmas
    
    February 26, 2018 at 4:16 pm
    
    If you post more often maybe you could 🙂 .
    
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    1. lou rasmus
      
      February 26, 2018 at 4:25 pm
      
      well ive always liked a challenge
      
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Scarpoe

February 26, 2018 at 3:59 pm

Nothing ventured nothing gain as they say.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 4:03 pm
  
  very true. just struggling with a lot of self doubt right now
  
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dale.beck1@hotmail.com

February 26, 2018 at 4:08 pm

it keeps coming back to bite you lou… you can never leave… like the hotel california.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 4:23 pm
  
  i don’t think i ever will
  
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  1. ortensia
    
    February 26, 2018 at 6:12 pm
    
    not to mention that the hotel California closed down after one of the biggest drugs related massacres,lol. Lou,you are young don’t waste much time doubting yourself it is all time you could use in better way but remember no pain no gain….unfortunately
    
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    1. lou rasmus
      
      February 26, 2018 at 8:42 pm
      
      all of this is very true. i try not to but it happens. and that’s it. i just feel like maybe i need to push myself a little more
      
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      1. ortensia
        
        February 26, 2018 at 9:02 pm
        
        Yes do it.it is hard but pays back😎trust the old lady
        
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        lou rasmus
        
        February 26, 2018 at 9:28 pm
        
        thats what im thinking
        
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        ortensia
        
        February 26, 2018 at 9:56 pm
        
        👍🏻😎
        
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George F.

February 26, 2018 at 4:17 pm

Life offers no “mulligans.” You can’t change the past, but starting today, you can change your future.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 4:26 pm
  
  very true. just still not sure what future i want
  
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  1. George F.
    
    February 26, 2018 at 4:32 pm
    
    Pick up Stephen King’s “On Writing.” Great insights.
    
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    1. lou rasmus
      
      February 26, 2018 at 4:34 pm
      
      have it. just haven’t found the time to read it yet. should be my next
      
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      1. George F.
        
        February 26, 2018 at 4:44 pm
        
        Just skip to the part where he buys a new desk and spends “six years sitting behind it drunk and stoned out of my mind…not even remembering writing Cujo” That will grab your interest.
        
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        lou rasmus
        
        February 26, 2018 at 4:57 pm
        
        sounds like it will. thanks George
        
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Scarpoe

February 26, 2018 at 4:28 pm

Maybe a short break will do.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 4:34 pm
  
  i just took a break. i got bored. trying to write through it now.
  
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  1. Scarpoe
    
    February 26, 2018 at 4:43 pm
    
    Good luck.
    
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    1. lou rasmus
      
      February 26, 2018 at 4:57 pm
      
      thank you. i need it
      
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tubularsock

February 26, 2018 at 4:33 pm

Lou. Let’s clear some things up.

You are already an excellent writer.

School is not the most creative place to hang out.

Why do you believe that you are responsible to support your girlfriend?

Is there some work you WANT to do?

There are no safe jobs.

And to be happy is an inside job which needs tending continually.

Your appointment is up with Dr. Sock. Just put the payment of unmarked Franklin’s in a brown unmarked lunch bag and place it in our agreed upon park bench.

See you at your next appointment, Monday.

And remember, “You Are The Force” so keep your light saber dry!

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 4:37 pm
  
  thanks for seeing me, Doc. you’ve given me a lot to consider. and given me a nice compliment. the money’s in the bag. will catch up again soon.
  
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floweringink

February 26, 2018 at 5:09 pm

Lou, you are an artist, a true artist, because you dig deep and uncover all the messy bits of your truth. Unfortunately, I think the self doubt comes with the territory, I have felt it so often in my life and still do and I think always will. I am drowning in it this week. But, who the fuck am I? I am not wisdom or an expert. I do know that you are a writer and a good one. I believe good writing begins with the truth and school can’t give you your truth. Someone can be given all of the tools, but if they don’t have the heart, their art will never really be any good.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 5:19 pm
  
  damn. that was very nice to hear. thank you … i just think about school because i never really gave it a chance, and i wonder if i should have. but i do think you’re right. it has to come from some place real. and the self doubt is real, as you know. so that’s where i am right now.
  
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  1. floweringink
    
    February 26, 2018 at 5:25 pm
    
    I didn’t really give school a chance either, and there are times I think that I will never be a good writer, or a real writer, without the degree, but then I remind myself of what I just told you…..and I do believe it. If self doubt is where you are right now, be there and write about it, just like you did in your post. You are the real deal Lou!
    
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jim-

February 26, 2018 at 5:38 pm

Redo’s are always a healthy and adventurous option. Reach you potential buddy. The mere fact that you can see something missing tells me you have more to offer this beautiful woman of yours.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 8:39 pm
  
  ya. i agree. i think there’s more
  
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Orvillewrong

February 26, 2018 at 5:39 pm

Its never to late to change, but if you did could you live with the change!

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 8:40 pm
  
  good question. i think so… no way of knowing for sure though
  
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kenza

February 26, 2018 at 6:04 pm

Travel. Go somewhere you have never been. Do that at least once a year and your perspective will change for the better. A very humble piece of advice from the heart. Kenza.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 8:40 pm
  
  right on. i like that advice, thanks for sharing it.
  
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Silent Hour

February 26, 2018 at 7:32 pm

Good to see you again! You were missed.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 8:43 pm
  
  that is kind, thank you. i missed it here too
  
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Rikki

February 26, 2018 at 8:46 pm

Nothin wrong with trying something new if you don’t like where you’re at in life. But there’s also nothing wrong with taking another stab at something you’ve been doubting.

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Joseph Emerson

February 26, 2018 at 9:12 pm

I wish I could back with what I know now. I wish for the opposite. I’d like to bail on my corporate job and go back to be a starving artist, although stressful, those were some of the best years of my life. Now rethinking that… it was exhausting lol

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 9:35 pm
  
  i guess they both come with good and bad. like most things. but id like to have the steady job and the chance to pursue the art in my free time, rather than no hope of a good job at all
  
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  1. Joseph Emerson
    
    February 26, 2018 at 9:39 pm
    
    Tough spot. Wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide to do ✌🏻
    
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    1. lou rasmus
      
      February 26, 2018 at 9:42 pm
      
      thanks Joseph. appreciate that
      
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WaltPage

February 26, 2018 at 9:25 pm

You’ll never know if you never try, but then is your life half empty or half full?

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 26, 2018 at 9:37 pm
  
  hopefully half full. i guess ill have to see
  
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Richmond Road

February 26, 2018 at 9:56 pm

Lou, my man. Why so negative? Take comfort in the knowledge that even after you get that job behind the mahogany desk with the Ferrari parked downstairs and after your girlfriend (who has mysteriously become your wife) has been showered with diamonds and your girlfriends (who have not become your wife, but have not completely given up on the idea) have showered you with compliments and blow jobs ….. it will all be just the same. Even after your kids are enrolled at the very best universities but really spend most of their lives skiing in France or sailing on the Mediterranean ….. it will all feel just the same. And if you keep blogging, writing, painting and imagining then that will feel just the same too. No matter what, you’ll feel, at the end of it all, that you have made the wrong decision somewhere. You will feel like a failure.
Because if you ever live up to your own expectations or ever achieve your lofty goals your next step will be into the abyss. We are all doomed to failure.
Try to be a beautiful failure.
And take comfort in that.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 27, 2018 at 1:55 am
  
  jesus that was beautiful. and it all sounds right. thank you for this comment. ill try my best
  
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HotBottoms

February 26, 2018 at 11:54 pm

It seems that you can’t not write. That’s the only reason to do it. Pay attention to the now-exactly what’s in front of you. Fuck ten minutes ago or a year down the road. Do what you need to do NOW. The rest follows from that.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 27, 2018 at 1:57 am
  
  right on. write on. i think i can do that
  
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erroneouschoices

February 26, 2018 at 11:54 pm

It’s never ever too late to change directions. You can do it at any point. Time affords us exactly that, time. If you want to try something else do it. I love my experience with higher education. I’m not a professional writer but I still do it all the time, while I also go to school and work etc.
We are always evaluating life though, keep that in mind. 🙂

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 27, 2018 at 2:00 am
  
  thats it. i think ill always write.. but i also want to know what else there is. it’s a curiosity if nothing else
  
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S_MW

February 27, 2018 at 1:47 am

Think you’re a fucking amazing writer…and what everyone else said.
I’m sorry but I got nothin’ else. This writing block thing is catching.

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lou rasmus

February 27, 2018 at 2:01 am

i hope it doesn’t get you too. … but thank you. that is very kind

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1. S_MW
  
  February 27, 2018 at 3:07 am
  
  It kinda did, but I took something for it and now I’m fine. And you’re welcome…I mean what I say.
  
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  1. lou rasmus
    
    February 27, 2018 at 4:03 am
    
    good. and thanks again
    
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    1. S_MW
      
      February 27, 2018 at 4:06 am
      
      No….thank YOU! 🙂
      
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Winnie

February 27, 2018 at 5:36 am

I felt like that Lou. I have so many ideas but I can’t form a concrete one. Just don’t stress yourself. Hey, thank you for always dropping by my blog. I appreciate it.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 27, 2018 at 6:07 am
  
  of course. and thank you for the comment. good to know im not the only one
  
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  1. Winnie
    
    February 27, 2018 at 6:32 am
    
    Yes! Everyone has it 😉
    
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As much cake as you want

February 27, 2018 at 5:49 am

Glad to see you’re back – it’s always good reading your posts.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 27, 2018 at 3:57 pm
  
  thank you. glad you enjoy them
  
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timhuw

February 27, 2018 at 6:21 am

Try reading Elmore Leonard and his 12 point guide for writing. He spent a lifetime honing his craft AND made sure his punctuation expressed his true meanings. RE your last sentence.

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 27, 2018 at 3:38 pm
  
  i might have to check it out. but i do like my last sentence as it is
  
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charlypriest

February 27, 2018 at 1:57 pm

I bought a child, just an idea

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1. lou rasmus
  
  February 27, 2018 at 3:41 pm
  
  hahaha that’s one way to make a change. not sure if i want to go that far. but thanks for the suggestion
  
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  1. charlypriest
    
    February 27, 2018 at 4:53 pm
    
    I’m not kidding, every time I bought “pipas” or “pipes” as my computer translater says…..
    Point being here in Spain you buy half of a kilo, and they are so nice to make you look at a UNIFE ad, wich comes with a black kid there, which I calaed him “Maccoko” so I invest in food helpling the poor
    
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    1. lou rasmus
      
      February 27, 2018 at 9:31 pm
      
      ok i see… guess thats probably more manageable
      
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Laura M Bailey

March 3, 2018 at 4:47 pm

Me too

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1. lou rasmus
  
  March 3, 2018 at 5:19 pm
  
  if only we could
  
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  1. Laura M Bailey
    
    March 3, 2018 at 6:54 pm
    
    Amen
    
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Butterfly Effect

March 11, 2018 at 11:50 pm

Wow

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1. lou rasmus
  
  March 12, 2018 at 4:59 am
  
  thank you for reading
  
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