I want to take a shower and start over. Not with this, but in general. I’d like to go back to school and figure out what my life should look like – what it could look like – if I wasn’t so worried about writing all this bullshit. I could probably get a good job if I wanted to. Something safe that pays the bills and supports my girlfriend. Something that may support a child one day. I wonder where I would be if I gave all of this up and started again. I wonder if I’d be happier with myself. Maybe I should give it a try.